Who is at fault really?

“Paneer tikka!” she said in pure excitement.

Nivedita was a foodie and loved our great Indian cuisine,she was asked by her husband about what she would want to eat on a Sunday.

20 mintues later she came up with this reply.Her husband asked her to order the same from the app present in her mobile phone.

After a disappointed look and a brush through her hair,she picked up the phone and opened a online food app.

The order was placed for two.

The couple was hungry at first,but became “Hangry“ which is apparently a new slag for Angry plus Hungry,when they were handed the package by the delivery boy.

Nivedita went furious and shouted on the delivery boy quite brutally.

Though she was not a person who would do that but seeing her Paneer tikka’s in this condition made her fuming in anger for the same.

The parcel was not in a good condition,she picked up the phone and dialled the number of the restaurant.

She told them she wanted the refund,they asked her if she would accept a re-order but she blankly said a no and eventually they did what she said.

Several days passed since that incident and once again on another occasion of not wanting to cook,she grabbed her phone to order from the same app.

But the app didn’t work on her phone,she thought to herself if there was glitch in the app and didn’t bother much that day.

Later,once again she tried doing it but couldn’t get a successful result.

Tired of trying for it and refreshing the page again and again she picked up her husband’s phone once he was back home,to download the app and use it from his number.

The food app in his mobile worked!

Now she was very sure that she had been blocked from the side of the food company.

She was raging in resentment and felt extremely negative about the whole situation.

She went upto her husband and told him the same,to which he suggested she would check up on her mobile’s app or rather re install it and this is unlikely to be possible.

She did what he has asked her to do and she was filled with remorse to see that the app started working fine in her phone too!

Reality hit her and she thought about the incidents that followed up back to back since that day,she realised maybe it was her own guilt conscious that was playing a dominant role in making herself believe that she was being ignored by the company or maybe she deserved to be treated that ways.

The other day she had sketched up a huge fight with the poor fellow who brought food for her in the humidity and managed to get a refund too,she thought somewhere in her mind that she did something unethical and deserved a repent of her sins!

All this was cooking up in her head but in reality there was nothing like it.

This was just an example of how it takes a huge toll on ourselves of what we subconsciously think of who we are or how good or bad we should be treated.As someone very rightly said,we choose the love we think we deserve.Its the same for every other emotion,maybe the world outside is not as cruel to you as you think they will be.

Its quite surprising how your own mind starts to play insightful tricks on you and you develop a whole new scenario of what must have been happening behind your back or how you must be brought between conversations but the reality is not always the same,actually,is most of the times opposite.

So what needs to be done?

The answer of this question is a question,really.

If we ask questions to our own selves about how,what,why do we feel a certain way rather than guessing the answers of what others would do or say or are trying to make us feel,we would be in a better place.

Not everybody in this world sees you to laugh at you,not everybody in this world is keen to pull up your chair to make you fall and not everybody in this world is there to judge you,your mind is enough to do so if you aren’t friends with it or give it a pep talk once in a while!